Wish

I just wish to be a better person. I know it's simply said but many if not most of us can't achieve this at all. I try my best every day and I always get broken down. Sometimes I just think its the way I think cause I've become a real negative towards myself. I understand all of this yet I can't seem to sort out the problems cause they are not refrained to thoughts alone. They are all so fucking real. It hurts alot but I try to pick myself up and carry in with life. I am just scared that every time I break a piece of me is broken and wonder what will happen when all the pieces of me crack? Would I be able to continue living? Would I have the strength to face anything this world throws at me? In one word I can say no but I'll really try my damn hardest to make things work before I go out of this "game"