Crossroads

At the crossroads of my life now. Extremely tired these past few days thinking about you and my future, had 4hrs of total sleep for the previous two days and came back to Sg straight to my uncles place for his funeral prayers. Im dead tired crying about everything and faking a smile whenever I'm in public. Wasted 3yrs trying to keep the love I had with the first and only girl I love till this very moment. I have to stop being so pathetic, I regret that you don't want anything with me anymore it wasn't like I treated you badly but hey I was wrong to have not known that you were young and didn't know what you wanted in this life. I have time now and I need to get my act together, have so many other things to think about like getting myself through Uni and achieving a good career. I think it's time I aligned my priorities accordingly on what's of greater importance in my life. Love can wait for another time in the future. Hey it's not like someone is desperately wanting to be with me anyways. Also I can't remember what is happiness anymore and even if I do I think it's a feeling suited for me anymore. To a better tomorrow :)